You know when life unexpectedly kicks you square in the nuts and you didn't see it coming? Yeah that's what's been happening over on my end. Yesterday hit me square in the nuts and its really putting my optimistic nature to a challenge. Part of me just wants to moan, groan and ask why? Why the hell does it seem like everyone gets the breaks but us? I mean, Britney Spears can't even walk straight or put panties on and yet somehow that girl is spending what we make in a month on a purse filled with cheetos. Isn't hard work rewarded anymore? Because lately it seems like that's all we've been doing, working very hard and making minuscule progress.
When you're neck deep in shit, it's so tempting to wallow in it and find somebody to blame the crap on. Usually in situations like this, I'm always thinking, okay, there are worse things that can happen, at least you're healthy, you have your family, friends, you have a roof over your head. But when several piles of crap hit you in the span of one day, it's hard to stand right back up.
I'm not going to go into what happened for personal reasons, but it has nothing to do with any life or death situations, my marriage is dandy, the munchkin is fine...actually, in retrospect, it's a fixable problem but again, when the problem hits you suddenly, it takes a while to clear your head and look at it from a non panic perspective.
(can you tell this is a fucking money problem already???)
But I'm a firm believer in things happen for a reason and I think the recent incident that's happened lately is one of those things. Ultimately, it is a fixable problem and in the grand scheme of things this is piddly bullshit. It's a hard fact of life and a wake up call for us and we'll come out of this situation stronger and smarter. (I only wish the viking hubby was so positive, he's quite the opposite, he likes to wallow..which makes my whole "putting a positive spin" on things even harder, and annoying for him) Bare with me if this post is not my usual nonsense ramblings... I just needed to vent somewhere and sometimes when I write it all down, the problem doesn't seem as large as it is in my head you know what I mean? And I can see that after writing this post, I'm right.
So there you have it, a rare moment when I'm a big ol downer.
Sorry I had to use this blog (and you guys) as my therapists but it needed to be done.
Now someone go buy me an ice cream cone.
5 comments:
How about a nice virtual scoop of Hagen Daz Baileys Irish Cream? Ice cream and alcohol wrapped into one. Just what you need :-)
Sometimes life sucks being an adult. Vent away!
Chunky Monkey - one scoop or three?
You can have a positive outlook on a situation and still say "This sucks @$$." Don't feel bad about feeling that way!
Why DO all the wrong people get the breaks? And why do these things always happen at Christmas?? I hope whatever it is can be fixed soon.
Sorry to read about your problem.
There isn't a problem in the world that half a million dollars wouldn't fix.
That's my motto.
I quit trying to make sense of life a long time ago. It came about after decades of shit piling up, but I'd have to say that the final straws came when it became painfully obvious to me that the media and the masses (the people who believe everything they see on the news) felt Paris Hilton and Britney Spears were far more important news than the most crooked administration this country has ever seen. After all, "PARIS HAS TO GO BACK TO JAIL!??!?!?!" is far more important than, say, Bush's lies to get us (and keep us) in the Middle East, which has resulted in tens of thousands of deaths.
I think the only answer I can come up with after 32 years of soul-searching is Earth Sucks. I know, not every elequent or uplifting, is it?
It also doesn't surprise me that life wears steel toed boots. Figures that something this fucked up wouldn't wear stylish boots.
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